Recovered

This week has sucked, many things have gone wrong, including still actually not even hearing Amy's voice since the break-up lol which in fact never involved her fucking voice. I mean we've talked online the other day, she was all upset because I didn't talk to her during the 24 hours after the breakup(or at least looked it)... Really? I'm sorry I didn't want to talk to you after months of justifying to people why I didn't want to breakup with you, for you to just IM me in the end while I'm trying to help your whole unhappy self. I mean I don't care about it anymore now its just a me hanging out with friends thing, not me ignoring her which was only a one day thing. It hurt in the beginning because yea 7 months and she put up with my retardation but then I realized something. When we started I was out of my mind on the drugs that where suppose to help me (which did shit, we've gone over that) and she constantly wasn't happy (I'm sure I contributed realizing more n more but I tried and there was no way to help anything IF WE WHERE ALWAYS WITH OTHER PEOPLE! FUCK! We where only alone maybe 3 times in 8 months -_-). When ever she was happy she wasn't with me so I'm happy in a way.

So yea whatever it's clearly for the better; all done, all good, The End. *happy face*
Now to just lose this weight I put back on, treadmill later and the "food=hate" diet for a few months and I should be back to myself again, till then I need to work on my Portfolio and the rest of the college stuff I need to have done REALLY soon, epically if I even want a chance at getting into SVA or anywhere in the city.

Sh*t...

F**k so me and Amy just broke up... it sucks we where going out for 7 months maybe 8 but f**k it. If I show I care to much I'll be pulling my emo clothes out again. LOL things weren't that great though I mean sH*t (EDIT)
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I never actually loved anybody till her and it pisses me off. She IMed me while I was trying to get the full info for my cousins Sweet Sixteen for her and then came a novel that we'd already talked about. I tried fixing what was out of my control, she was unhappy. Thank God I didn't start giving people here Birthday invites n sh*t, Canceling the DVD's can't handle that right now.
I'm getting IPod therapy, Tomorrow I'll get shit faced try to ignore her for the day (not to be a d*ck just to move). Then try to do that "friend" thing again, I know that's not going to work though... it never works.

I hate life...

F**k! Why do care?